Who am i.

Issi talaash -o-tajassus mein Kho gaya  hun main , Agar nahi hun to kiyun’kar Jo hun to keya hun main

Who am i.

Most important and toughest journey is journey within. Who are you, What are you strength. What are your weakness.

What are your trigger points. From other they can control you. But there are more things. How I learn. How read.

Some people are reader. Some are listener. For getting good leader or manager you can also understand. Are you reader or Are you listener.

What are your values. Values lies what things you want in you. You qualities you want inside you. For this you have to do mirror check.

I listen one quwali. “Jaare lokakn nayee apny app nu jaan liaya, oh log juda hoo jandayee naayee”

Those who understand who are they, They are become different.

I read some where, what you do when you are alone, that is only your reality.

You have to accept your past mistakes, That helps you to peace. You have to embrace your flaws. That make you more beautiful. You have to accept yourself.

That is ultimate self love.

Be happy with being you. Love your flaws. Own your quirks. And know that you are just as perfect as anyone else, exactly as you are.

Ariana Grande

I was reading somewhere. In ancient time the words inscription at the temple of Oracle of Delphi “ Know yourself”.

I was sitting of my hindu friend, he talk about me all answer lie with in yourself. books, readings, knowledge generated layers on you. I was surpised that is same message what Baba bulleh shah told you. Then I feel. Possible what ever situation you have. What ever problem you face. You have to look inside you. What should you do.

I was listening Satu Guru, he told the same idea, Some one asked him Do he have knowledge of everything. He replied. he did not know everything. He just know himself. What ever question comes to him most of the time about life problems and situation. He put himself in that question and got all answers. What he should do and reply.

But here is another question. Would that answer 100 percent applicable to you. I am sure not. Because you are different form the rest of others. You have to know yourself. And remove all layers of knowledge and just seek answer with in yourself.

“Phar phar aalim fasal houon kaadif apnay aap nu parayha hee nahee”

Our thoughts creates our life.

God created our life or we created it. this statement confused us. God gives us life. But we shaped it as our our thoughts. Our circumstances shapes our thoughts.

There are some limitation. But most of time our choices shapes our life.

In this way we created our life. What we are results of choices and thoughts.

o change my life. I read one book by Faiez Hassan Seyal.

“Change your lens change of your life”.

That book helps me to rethink many areas of life. That book changed my life by sharing the idea of responsibility. My life is my responsibility.

Definitely results take time. Not even reading one book helps you change your life. But After accepting the fact you are responsible of your actions. And those action shapes your destination. And all your actions are result of your thoughts.

This idea helps me to improve many areas of life. And all those areas, where I did not take responsibility still are disaster.

Very interesting Quote I found from James Lane Allen.

“As you think, you travel, and as you love, you attract. You are today where, your thoughts have brought you; you will be tomorrow where your thoughts take you.”

lets talk about Patience

What is patience. today I have to write my understanding about it. Patience is

the capacity to accept or tolerate delay, problems, or suffering without becoming annoyed or anxious.

The equivalent word is Saabar in arabic and Urdu. While searching this article I found Quran also describe Saabar.

One word more coming with Patience that is perseverance. In Quran Quran, 3:200 Almighty also mentioned this word.

One thing more interesting in that ayat lord mentioned, also helped others to stay motivated in situation where they have to practice patience.

Simple word meaning for patience is to bear something you dont like. Some thing we have faced but there is not solution for it. In this case usually said “ Putter saaber ker”. Child you have to bear it.

I but here my understanding is little different. Patience is bearing the consequence and prepare this next time this not happen. Or prepare for handle the similar situation. If you did not improve or learn then you are not practice patience.

Suppose I awake late and reach office late. And as result boss angry and he instruct the deduction of half day.

I handle this with patience. I can not do anything. But that is not patience. Patience is I bear the consequences. and try my best to avoid this mistake again. I have to awake early in the morning.

Many times results are not coming. We are putting efforts. We have to do patience.

Everything happens on their right time. Again here the understand why results are not coming, either we are doing right things or it natural process to results comes after specific time.

For example putting efforts to weight loss. Results comes in 3 months. We have to work with patience and perseverance. One day results will come, here patience also include hope. Stay motivated.

to he haan maain nahee saajanh.

Tu HIYOON haye, main nahin we sajna Tu hiyoon haye hain, main nahin

Khole de parchawin wangon, ghum rahia man manhin

Jaan bolaan toon nale bolain, chup rehwaan man nahin

Jaan sowan toon nale sowein,

jaan taraan toon rahin

Bullah shoh ghar aaya sade, jindri ghol ghumayin

You know we used the word “Maast” Massatm. All translation I found equivalent word is intoxicated.

But do we intoxicated under some drug ?. We possible intoxicated under love or obsession.

Ishaq haqi is divine love is beyond my understanding. It is bigger thing like meera bai. or like Baba Bulleh to his spiritual master Shah anyat.

Mastam means obsessed so much he lost his identity, his self. He or she no care of any one . lost in deep thought, left the world in his or her love.

Khole de parchawin wangon, Ghum rahia man manhi.

Like cursed shadow my heart following you, My beloved.

The obsession is also creates intoxation. We lost ourselves in passion.

Jaan bolaan toon nale bolain, chup rehwaan man nahin

when I speak a talk about you, when I am silent but my heart not.

Jaan sowan toon nale sowein, jaan taraan toon rahin

You are in my sleep, During travel, I am thinking about you.

Ik Alif parho chutkara hayee. Focus on one task

I read the book from Qasir abbas. Main Ishaq or Woh.

After that my understanding of sufi peotry is started to change. Why these sufi couplet from 100 or years.

Something inside it. people love it. These couplet have some deep meaning. We translate or try to understand it according to our perception about life. Some thoughts they talk about god. Some times they talk about some lost love.

While travelling to office, I am not using mobile. Most of people I saw using whats app or wathcing movies on youtube or ticktock. That 30 minutes I started to observe my environment. Start to living in present moment. And the same time, My mind start to think. who am I. What I am doing. How I can improve my work. How things will be better in my life.

Couplet of baba bulleh shah came to my mind.

Ik Alif parho chutkara hayee.

Muslim consider Alif is for Allah. The first alphabet of Urdu, hindi, farsi. But some sufi saints talk Alif for Ishaq. they did not start Ishaq with Eyen Alphbat. They started Ishaq with Ialif. In arabic. Alif is used for First alphabet. But some they used Alif for infinite or million.

I am not going to discuss this as word used for Allah or not go into religious discussion.

I am considering it one task at time. When you doing something just focus one task at hand. If you did not have focus on one task. Possible you lost. In million task. Every task become distraction for other.

So Baba Bulleh shah, talks about one thought at time. Focus one idea at time. Focus on one thing at time.

Ik Alif pharo chuttkara hayee.

Means, if you want to achieve something or true liberation from stress. Pick one task and complete it. Forget about all other task.

One by one you finish all task. But the Idea of one is amazing.

Everything starts form one. It means, if you deliver something successfully, more work starts to appear.

Maktab ishaq a dastoor nirala dakah,

Usye chuti naa mili jis naye sabaq yaad kaya.

Interesting. What I learn from professional career. That When you do and complete some task with full concentration and able to close it or finish it. More work start to appear.

Ik Alif Pharo Chukkraa hayee.

Take the name of One. You will be liberated.

You can also found this on apna org.

https://apnaorg.com/poetry/bullah/8.htm

Ik alif parho chutkara he

Ik alifon do tan char hoyePhir lakh karor hazar hoyePhir othon bajh shumaar hoyeHik alif da nukta niara he

Ik alif parho chutkara he

Kiun parhnain gadd kitabaan diSir chana en pind azabaan diKiun hoyian shakal jladaan diAgge pinda mushkal bhara he

Ik alif parho chutkara he

Hun hafiz hifz quran karainParh parh ke saaf zubaan karainPer nemat wich dhian karainMann phirda jion halkara he

Ik alif parho chutkara he

Bullah bhi borh da hoya siOh burjh wada ja hoya siJad barch oh fani hoya siPhir reh gia bi akara he

Living in present moment

I was traveling to office. In RTA bus, I feel loneliness. Loneliness is absence of interest in crowd. A lot of beautiful faces, young and old. All are having hope for bright day, But I feel loneliness. That is problem of every expat. Who came to foreign country to earn money. To make the living standard of family up to the mark.

I was listen one recorded audio of Wasif ali Wasif. Some one asking loneliness comes from outside world or comes from inside.

The answer was it comes from inside. And solution was keep yourself busy. Either memories of past.

But for me, memories of past creates disheartens, guilt and pain. But it ups to use to remember the good moments of life.

My grand mother used to said “ waqat to guzarna haye miyaan, rooah ker guzaro yaa hass ker”. We have to kill the time, its up to you either be happy or be sad.

Best way to kill the time, is live in the present moment. No worry about future and no regrets for past. We can force. it

And if you have to remember only good moments of life. When bad events start to appear shut up these memories.

The memories or events did not make happy or sad, Its our story attached to these memories made us happy or sad.

That is truth that most of happy people actually sad people. They find reason to make them happy.

Most important thing is when we took decision and understand what will be the consequences. Then what why be said.

Accept the life as it is.

Most important thing what we make sad that we did not accept something, we want something different but things are not happen as our expectation. So we have to accept the life as it is. We have to accept every situation that occur.

I read one quote that is attribute to buddah and also Wasif Ali Wasif that, The different between expectation and reality is “Dukha” Suffering or pain. So remove the expectation and accept the reality.

Enjoy the present moment. That pain suffering are the noises that did not accept or live in the present moment. acceptance creates our mind calm. At that moment, we start to listen our surrounding. What people talks about, Who are they, what they are doing.

So we have to enjoy the present moment. And for this we have to accept our reality. Stop resistance. When you happy, everything seems to be happy. Start observing your environment. Enjoy the moment.

embrace the gift of life

While another reflection on Azim Jamal, one minute sufi. And also try to write.

The Azim Jamal, writes about sufi quote, “ life is precious gift and bridge to next life”. Then end of each concept he asked to write on this reflection.

For sufi death is very different meaning. It is another form of life. Something beyond our understanding. Some videos I saw in Present day Pakistan that on death of Malang, so called sufi. Or possible some resistance between what ancient folk religion and Islamic tradition. there is celebration on the death of sufi. They go with traditional music and dancing in the front of Jinaza until they buried the sufi. Because they think death is meeting with God.

Qatara mila samdar saye samadar hoo gaya.

When we drop in unlimited, we become unlimited.

Other point of view of life is precious gift and is bridge to next life. If we see ever moment is change. In ever moment has power to transform. It converts into next life. It is bridge. If we consider next life as result of something. Which is it. its mean so shall you reap. So we consider death is meaning of something finish or end. Then it means out put come out. This moment will over and something will come out of it.

Its said that guru Nanak while traveling to his spiritual journey, He was sitting outside of small settlement. A few naughty child came to know that some Gayani sadu ( Enlighten Saint) came and sitting outside the city. He brought chicken baby in his hand and behind the back. And visited to Guru Nanak and ask him, What was in his hand. He was thinking, if Guru ji replied you had alive chicken in your hand, he we would break the nick of chicken and would show him dead one. And if he told he has dead chicken in his hand. He would show alive chicken. But Guru replied in surprisingly amazing, “ You have in life in your hand. Make it or break it”.

The hidden message here is we life life in our hand, precious life. Its our responsibility to make it or break it. We have to spent it with respect to as our wants. either is absolutely what we want or we follow the gods way or saint sadhu told us. its up to you.

Life is previous only when it came with responsibility. We have take responsibility to live it fullest.

the when it brings us to another life. The result from current life. We take benefit until, we take its responsibly of life.

So this sufi concept is all about hope. What ever happen, is past, What we doing today, it will help us to transform to other life. Today is the bridge for tomorrows life. So still hope for better tomorrow if we do better good deed, focus goals. And result will come. What will be do today, it will result tomorrow, It is as simple as what we are today are result of yesterday acts.

Slow Down And watch where you are going

In the reflection section of One minute Sufi aurther called to write your own reflection after each sufi thought.

I starting to write because I want to improve my writing skills.

In a boat rushing on a fast-running creek, it seems as if the trees on the bank are rushing by. What seems to be changing around us is rather the speed of our craft leaving this world. —Rumi

Jamal, Azim. The One-Minute Sufi: 1 . Jaico Books. Kindle Edition.

Some times, I found that time is running fast. Days, night and then week ends comes fast. We busy ourselves too much. And we forget what is important to us. The living style is too expensive. And we are struggling to much to maintain us. We spent on things which not required. We can impress others. We can survive without these things.

Rumi write this fast place life as moving fast placing boat in creek. It feels trees on the shore are moving very fast. But actually our time is passing and we are moving towards death, our departure from this world.

This boat takes us which direction, we dont know. We are just moving with boat. The fast placing boat. We need to take pause. understand were we are going. Ask right question, is this right direction ?. What we see moving around the creek? is it illusion or reality. What we are thinking and what is our actual reality. Either we are living in fantasy or we living in reality. reality check is very necessary.

Here boat is symbolic for our Circumstances. Our circumstances takes us in unknown direction. We are moving with it.

It is very similar to situation, that one person is running very fast horse. One person asked him where is going so fast. He replied. I don’t know where horse takes me, I am going there.

Time is passing, we need to control our circumstance not our circumstances control us. It is not easy. But with efforts and struggle, you can change your direction. A lot of efforts required.

life has four seasons, but three already passed

I want to write on the topic of “life has four seasons, but three already passed”.a

When I started to write, this sufi quote attribute to Sultan Bhu came to into my mind

īmān salāmat har koī mañge ishq salāmat koī hū

jis manzal nuuñ ishq pahuñchāve īmān ḳhabar na koī hū

mañgan īmān sharmāvan ishqoñ dil nuuñ ġhairat hoī hū

ishq salāmat rakkhīñ ‘āhū’ deyāñ īmān dharoī hū

یمان سلامت ہر کوئی منگے

عشق سلامت کوئی ھُو

منگن ایمان، شرماون عشقوں،

دل نوں غیرت ہوئی ھُو

جس منزل نوں عشق پہنچائے،

ایمان خبر نہ کوئی ھُو

میرا عشق سلامت رکھیں باھوؒ،

ایمانوں دیاں دھروئی ھُو

life has four seasons, three already passed mean, life is short, only we have to live in short of period of time.

There is biblical ledgend that longest lived man was Phrophet Noah. It said that he has near thousand year long life.

On god order, angel of death came to him take his soul back. He was prophet, he understand who is visitor, When angel of Death came, he was working in fields and that hot summer day. He asked angel of death, give me a few minute let me go and sit under the shadow of tree near by. Angel of death let him go. When he sat in shadow, and angel of death reach him to take his soul. Noah said to him, I found life as short as I was it was distance between a person who standing under sun and go under the shadow of tree.

Life is really short. We have to understand our purpose of life. Every one has different purpose of his life. Its up to us what we decided, what we want to do. In Dubai, while meeting with different people. I meet the Bangladeshi person. He used the word “ I saye app ko kush milaye gee”. It will make you happy. The purpose of life is what’s make you happy.

I am not religious person, other wise I told you that purpose of life is to worship of God. Actually he was saying what he thinks and works on his purpose of life.

Three season already passed. What we have enjoy that. We can enjoy present moment only when we make peace with ourselves.

Sufi did not believe in past. Sufi did not believe in future. Past can not be change. Future is not yet coming. We have only one season. That is present moment. To enjoy present moment we have to accept what we did in past. We are result of our past action. What we did yesterday we are facing it result. Now is the only time, only season, what we are doing today, we will face its result tomorrow.

Life is like day tight compartment. like ship standing in sea, water in all side. if we open the door of past, we will fill it with sorrow, regrets and guilt of miss opportunity . If we open the door of future, we will get worries, tension and anxiety . It is last season we are living in. Just it is. Make it beautiful. Do what we like, do what makes future beautiful.